I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.

Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside a course in miracles. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not consider whatever I’d said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents’satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.

You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.